OK...so Lent...well...a friend and I have been trying to keep eachother to our "restrictions" so to speak, but it's really tough. I'm kind of annoyed with myself for having such a hard time doing without some things that I don't need anyway. This past week I was doing some Diabetic counselling with a gentleman who is having a really hard time with the dietary restricitons associated with Diabetes. There are lots of handouts with tones of ideas and helpful strategies available, so I made some offers and suggested some resources. After the MD had seen him and finished up the visit, the MD and I got talking about how we all tend to think along the same lines as the diabetic we had just seen. We think we are so hard done by when we can't have what we want or crave whether it be food, clothes, money, posessions even if it's bad for us. The conversation ended like this. MD said, "If you've never tried cocaine and experienced its "high" should you feel like you've been left out, like you're missing out on something?" Hmmmm....
On a totally different note, my dad and brother are in hospital in Hamilton right now. My dad made the incredible decision to donate his kidney to Joel. Pretty cool eh! The surgeries went well and both are recovering at a typical rate. I feel very far away from them right now. Caleb and I will be flying down on Monday to help take care of my dad - who will be d/c home. I am getting very anxious to see them. My mom seems anxious for me to come too. It's kinda funny, but this is one of the first times I feel like I'm coming home as an adult. Her wanting and needing me at home to help out feels really good. A real confidence booster. Like I have skills and knowledge that will be an asset to the situation. I know she's looking forward to visiting with me (and Bebub too! 
) and so am I, but her confidence in me feels great!
We have been having a lot of challenges with Keilan's behavior the past 2 weeks. He is unusually disobedient and quite disrespectful in how he speaks to us. He seems really frustrated with something but can't verbalize it. As I was tidying up his books today, I realized that it had been quite a while since I sat down and read to him, something he really quite enjoys. We do try almost every night at to read at bedtime, but Caleb sometimes "gets in the way." I sort of played back the last few weeks and realized that I hadn't done much of anything just Keilan and I. I don't know if it's because of work, or just the busyness of life. But whatever it is, it's encrouching on my time with my son. I'm sad that he might feel left out or forgotten...ok I feel horrible about it! I love him entensely!! I love spending time with him...he's truly an incredible kid! So my goal is to rework my priorities and place time alone with him much closer to the top. I hope it will help...
Well, that's kinda it for my ramblings. It's 4:00am and I've got quite a caffeine buzz...on a half a cup!!!
